i carry your heart with me(i carry it in

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)


ee cummings

just gonna blog about

renee.




she loves sonic happy hour, but can never remember what time it is.

i've known her for three years, but it feels like forever.

we used to go to new directions, but now we are adults.


i would shove my heel into someone's head for her.

has it really come to this?

today i got a message in my myspace inbox from someone i don't know. he knows a friend of mine from high school. apparently he is friends with her boyfriend. i'll cut to the chase and paste the message for you all:

i was hanging out with timmy last night when barabra called. i made him ask her if she found a good southen girl for me. timmy tought we would be a good match. if you would like to email it would be nice. i understand if you don't. but i would like to show you some northwest carm.

has my life really and truly come to this? also, in his pictures i see that he has four cats, glasses with transitions lenses, and a possible fiance/ex fiance.

to be honest

i had to delete it. honestly.

i'm not ashamed

that i bought the heidi montag single "overdosin" on itunes today.


this is true. i do not lie. suck it.

ferguson darling

miley


spaghetti cat



millionaire



things that make me laugh. mainly spaghetti cat makes me laugh.

things i thought about in the past 36 hours

1. does anyone remember virb.com?
2. why does every guy that LC goes on a date with on the hills ask her what she does/what she's been doing? they already know. you don't have to watch the show to know that.
3.




ummmm. i'll come up with some more tomorrow. sorry i have only thought of two things in the past 36 hours.

i might be going crazy.

i'm so tired, but i feel stupid going to bed. i still haven't really unpacked from the beach. i just dumped everything from my bag on the floor, and each day i put up a random clothing item or two. i'm wrestling with an idea that i can't get out of my mind. can i have one friend in the world?(<-- that isn't the idea. it's just a separate question.)

so i guess noone loves toner as much as i do, but at least i have a new computer.

it's true. technology. you love it. no videoblogs yet.

the thing about toner is...

i love it!!!!!! i would name my first son Toner.bling.

shout it out if you love toner!!!!!!!

what a way to do it.

a guy i went to highschool with came out of the closet in a facebook group. the question someone asked was, "what's everyone doing, and where are they going?"

his answer was short sweet and made me seriously laugh out loud.

"i'm a vandy grad. i'm gay. i'm an atheist. i'm moving to morocco. that's about it.

whitney might have to plan the class reunions. oops.

Obama 08.

peace n love."



to that i wanted to say,"surprise surprise we already knew, jeremy"

see ya'll later. work time.

home is

my quiet old squeaky house. when i went out tonight it was nice. i was able to catch up with old friends and in between conversation make a workout plan for the weeks to come. multitasking. it's part of growing up. lololololololol.

today is

sunday. my dad turns 60 years old today.

all i want to do is go to the pool

not one person will go with me. i've been at my house all day just watching entourage and hoolahooping.

after two years

i can finally say that i had a HAPPY birthday. not that i did not have a good birthday before. now i can say with confidence that i have achieved contentment for now. no more flesh tubes. no more worrying about them. the friends that i cared the most about are still in my life.

i am officially 23 and flourishing.

Hell yeah it's summer!!!!!!!!!!

things about summer

book reading
you're so vain by carly simon playing in the grocery store
starving
all athletic shorts all the time
hooooolahooooping while burning citronella incense
an open garage with christmas lights
oscilating fans
fruit
popsicles
pressing "repeat"
drinking water

seriously though, summer must include these things. i forgot to mention that your summer should include me because i am "soooo good at it". the only thing i lack in my summer collection of equipment is a boombox. just you wait and see. i will have a boombox.

sooooo i know how to cook

but it occurred to me that there are many dishes i have never tried to make.

so booyah. i've started.

blah blah blah blah blah blah.

easter is my favorite holiday

it's true.
second chances
redemption stories
i love it all

convertible

cabrio,
you have been a wonderful friend and form of transport for me, but i am worried about you. i think these may be your final days, and it saddens me that we will spend them apart. however, you have become unreliable, a danger to yourself and others, and a real general pain in the butt. if you won't help yourself, how am i supposed to help you? maybe letting go is what i need to do for you and i to both have a better life. if you come out of this i hope we can both learn to take care of each other better.
your friend,
sarah

ways my bank account is winning this week

1. the trace closed. sad.
2. i ate out for only two meals.
3. i have more than enough money to pay all my bills.
4. babysitting is great money.

resisting temptation

i decided to turn down buying two pairs of shoes for 20% off. i bought no shoes. who is winning? my bank account.

i am completely stressed out right now. it's pretty much official that we don't have enough people to even renew our lease through the summer. i really don't want to sign another 12 month lease. i really don't know what to do. gggggggggggaaaaaaaah.

allergies

i can't hear very well out of my left ear, i have the sniffles, and my throat is scratchy. damn you allergies, and damn you john orman for deciding halfway through the oscars that it was okay for everyone to smoke in the living room. bbbbbbbbblllllllllling.

SNOWWWWW

i can't handle how freaking ridiculous nashville weather is sometimes. 3am on feb. 12th it was warm. warm. now it's a christmas card. freaks.

two nights in a row

broooooo'd it up at greenhouse on friday: i kissed a cute 19 yr old. could have sworn he was 21. just pecks.
at dan mcguinness last night: saw a girl give simulated oral sex while dancing with a dude. not sure if she was doing it on purpose but gross. my roommates boyfriend and his friends were so drunk that one of them had a one hundred and twenty dollar bar tab. when i told him i didn't think i should order another drink on his tab he told me that it didn't matter anymore after he had already spent so much. stacy's boyfriend told me that we watch too much mtv at the house to which i replied, " we only watch two shoes on there now. actually we really just mainly watch movies and rock of love."

today i read a book

last night was tornado time. all the girls in my house were freaked out, but then we just had to see what it looked like outside. there were our neighbors sitting on their porch. tennessee. no damage to our property, but i could not go to sleep. the sirens went off until 2:45.

today, it is true, i read a book. i read "him her him again the end of him". it was a perfect read for me. i recommend it. very funny. it's about a woman who falls for a man who is the biggest jerk, but still falls for him, and even when he is married can't let him go. interesting. she can't quite tell you in the book why he is attractive cause he obviously isn't. i read it from beginning to the end, one sitting.

last night

good, but i miss you all.