always worried about why i am motivated to go back to blonde. just wish it were easier to go back and forth from blonde to red and back again.

i forget how expensive weddings are

for everyone involved.

dresses for all events up to wedding day
bridesmaid dress
decorations for bachelorette party
liquor for bachelorette party
shoes
makeup
presents

just wish that i could have a party and people would buy me lingerie.

but

i love my friends anyway. would spend every last dime to make them happy.

i have been having daydreams

and i don't like them.

things i like:
tans
burritos
beaches
the ymca

i'll blog again once i get back from the emerald city.

over

could i be...

bi-polar? nope not it. i really think i need to live at the beach. maybe half a the year would be enough?

another womp-y blog

i just don't understand. i am so mad and tired. my life is so good though. got to stop feeling blue. can't. still pissed. still confused.

feeling just a little bit

blue-ish. i think i'm happy though?