bllliiiingblog

2010-08-26T21:19:00.001-07:00

you ruin every song i love. every. single. song.

songs to dj tanner gym it to:

2010-03-19T08:49:00.000-07:00

Black Sweat- Prince
Your Body- Pretty Ricky
Heartbreaker- MSTRKRFT ft. John Legend
My Dick- Mickey Avalon
Summer Girls- LFO
Flashing Lights- Kanye West
Phantom Part II- Justice
Suspicious Minds- Elvis Presley
Best I Ever Had- Drake
The Light- Common
Hey Ma- Cam'ron
Rude Boy- Rhianna
Wolf Like Me- TV on the Radio
International Players Anthem- UGK
Peaches and Cream- 112
The Fear- Lily Allen
Silver Soul- Beach House
Shine Blockas- Big Boi ft Gucci Mane

2009-09-23T12:12:00.000-07:00

always worried about why i am motivated to go back to blonde. just wish it were easier to go back and forth from blonde to red and back again.

i forget how expensive weddings are

2009-07-28T08:10:00.000-07:00

for everyone involved.

dresses for all events up to wedding day
bridesmaid dress
decorations for bachelorette party
liquor for bachelorette party
shoes
makeup
presents

just wish that i could have a party and people would buy me lingerie.

but

i love my friends anyway. would spend every last dime to make them happy.

i have been having daydreams

2009-05-21T10:56:00.000-07:00

and i don't like them.

things i like:
tans
burritos
beaches
the ymca

i'll blog again once i get back from the emerald city.

over

2009-05-20T13:58:00.000-07:00

could i be...

2009-04-14T10:09:00.000-07:00

bi-polar? nope not it. i really think i need to live at the beach. maybe half a the year would be enough?

another womp-y blog

2009-04-13T20:54:00.000-07:00

i just don't understand. i am so mad and tired. my life is so good though. got to stop feeling blue. can't. still pissed. still confused.

feeling just a little bit

2009-03-16T08:39:00.001-07:00

blue-ish. i think i'm happy though?

just listening to david archuleta and thinkin bout my celeb crushes through the years.

2009-03-02T08:52:00.000-08:00

Emilio estevez was my first celeb crush. I remember I had a magazine with him on the cover that I would stare at sometimes. This one lasted from about the age of six to seven.

JTT was so cute. Loved him on "Home Improvement".

This one was obviously more serious. I knew that one day I was going to be Sarah DiCaprio. I'm not quite giving up on him yet. So devoted.

This one started when I was in the 7th grade. I've always respected Hugh Hefner for living his personal american dream unapologetically. I think I will always have a crush on him. If there was anyway that I could be his girlfriend and live in the mansion best believe that I would.

SOOOOOOOOOOO in to Anthony Bourdain.

2009-02-25T08:36:00.000-08:00

i think that i am addicted to apple cider vinegar water. yesterday i decided that i would skip my two doses all together for the day. just wanted to see if i felt different. in the evening stopped up symptoms started to show up. soooooooo basically i went right back to my cider morning ritual, and i'm already feeling better. is this all in my head?

can apple cider vinegar make my dreams come true? can i live in a house in alys beach, florida?

n00b

2009-01-28T18:34:00.000-08:00

jessie jo, this blog is for you.

so thankful for

2009-01-26T15:17:00.000-08:00

the holidays being over
cooking
making money
outdoorsy time
breathing more
being soooo productive on a sunday

still miss sundays though.
also, thankful for:
plane landings
puckett's
jessie jo and jon
opryland
cheatham county
xxx vitamin water that tastes like blue raspberry slush puppy
carl

i am

2009-01-23T06:02:00.001-08:00

soooooo far behind.

should people post pictures of their babies online

2009-01-21T07:23:00.000-08:00

it's kind of weird how many baby pictures are just floating around the internet. babies can't approve of that. it's just not fair.

i love

2009-01-19T07:53:00.000-08:00

*my room. i love it because i sometimes pretend it is a boat or a treehouse. right now i'm just sitting in bed, having breakfast(coffee and oatmeal), and watching the snow fall.

*my long sleeved camo shirt. it is large, and it has a pocket. those are two reasons enough to love it, but i also love it because it is my brother's.

*yall. thanks for reading my blog, yall.

things that men miss out on

2009-01-13T07:13:00.000-08:00

yesterday was all about cleaning the house to get ready for our roommate lauren's lingerie shower. then i realized i didn't have a gift for her so i went to dillard's. after debating for about 20 minutes what to buy for her, i made my way to the cashier on the old lady/big gir(plus size)l side of the sleep department. over in that section it's a maze of fuzzy fabrics and faded florals. old lady in her foofy fur was buying 300 dollars worth of items. after she checked out i went to the front of the line, and the lady checking me out revealed that the woman comes once a year. she spends the entire day in the lingerie/sleepwear section and shops until she finds the items exactly to her liking.

that was a story about dedication.

another story of dedication:
awkward roommate katie bought high-heeled brown boots during christmas, and now she wears them every day. i don't understand. she never wore heels before. do her feet not hurt? did she find magical powers that finally allow her wear heels? or is it dedication?
it's got to be dedication.

today is the day i have to decide: do i dedicate my winter workouts to the y? or do i brave the cold and show some dedication by committing to working out outdoors? it's decision time 09.

2009-01-10T07:05:00.001-08:00

can it please stop raining? please?

i've been weighing my options when it comes to leaving the ymca

2009-01-09T10:04:00.001-08:00

or not leaving the ymca.

things i would miss:
watching a free movie while working out at the cardio cinema/free weights in the dark,
stark naked asian woman trying to be demure while covering up with one hand,
the man who looks like a lion at green hills,
people watching,
watching person after person try to operate a machine that is out of order,
warmth while working out,
fitness,
comradery,
fresh towels,
etc.

things i won't miss:
smelling fresh baked subs while working out,
awkward people having conversations right in front of your machine,
gross locker room nudity,
can't think of anything else

sooooooooooo sad. think i'm gonna go to hula hoop classes in february though.

sooooooooooooo

2009-01-04T17:03:00.000-08:00

new year's things

save money
more water
less beer more red wine
write letters
brush my teeth in the afternoon
floss
work hard
be godly
walk outside

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in

2008-12-23T13:30:00.000-08:00

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

ee cummings

just gonna blog about

2008-11-07T05:40:00.000-08:00

renee.

she loves sonic happy hour, but can never remember what time it is.

i've known her for three years, but it feels like forever.

we used to go to new directions, but now we are adults.

i would shove my heel into someone's head for her.

has it really come to this?

2008-10-19T16:40:00.000-07:00

today i got a message in my myspace inbox from someone i don't know. he knows a friend of mine from high school. apparently he is friends with her boyfriend. i'll cut to the chase and paste the message for you all:

i was hanging out with timmy last night when barabra called. i made him ask her if she found a good southen girl for me. timmy tought we would be a good match. if you would like to email it would be nice. i understand if you don't. but i would like to show you some northwest carm.

has my life really and truly come to this? also, in his pictures i see that he has four cats, glasses with transitions lenses, and a possible fiance/ex fiance.

to be honest

2008-10-14T21:42:00.000-07:00

i had to delete it. honestly.

i'm not ashamed

2008-08-28T16:08:00.000-07:00

that i bought the heidi montag single "overdosin" on itunes today.

this is true. i do not lie. suck it.

ferguson darling

2008-08-23T16:48:00.000-07:00

2008-08-21T20:45:00.000-07:00

miley

spaghetti cat

millionaire

things that make me laugh. mainly spaghetti cat makes me laugh.

things i thought about in the past 36 hours

2008-08-19T22:00:00.000-07:00

1. does anyone remember virb.com?
2. why does every guy that LC goes on a date with on the hills ask her what she does/what she's been doing? they already know. you don't have to watch the show to know that.
3.

ummmm. i'll come up with some more tomorrow. sorry i have only thought of two things in the past 36 hours.

i might be going crazy.

2008-08-17T20:44:00.000-07:00

i'm so tired, but i feel stupid going to bed. i still haven't really unpacked from the beach. i just dumped everything from my bag on the floor, and each day i put up a random clothing item or two. i'm wrestling with an idea that i can't get out of my mind. can i have one friend in the world?(<-- that isn't the idea. it's just a separate question.)

so i guess noone loves toner as much as i do, but at least i have a new computer.

2008-08-16T08:36:00.000-07:00

it's true. technology. you love it. no videoblogs yet.

the thing about toner is...

2008-08-13T15:28:00.001-07:00

i love it!!!!!! i would name my first son Toner.bling.

shout it out if you love toner!!!!!!!

what a way to do it.

2008-07-29T09:32:00.000-07:00

a guy i went to highschool with came out of the closet in a facebook group. the question someone asked was, "what's everyone doing, and where are they going?"

his answer was short sweet and made me seriously laugh out loud.

"i'm a vandy grad. i'm gay. i'm an atheist. i'm moving to morocco. that's about it.

whitney might have to plan the class reunions. oops.

Obama 08.

peace n love."

to that i wanted to say,"surprise surprise we already knew, jeremy"

see ya'll later. work time.

home is

2008-07-17T21:48:00.000-07:00

my quiet old squeaky house. when i went out tonight it was nice. i was able to catch up with old friends and in between conversation make a workout plan for the weeks to come. multitasking. it's part of growing up. lololololololol.

today is

2008-07-06T12:09:00.001-07:00

sunday. my dad turns 60 years old today.

all i want to do is go to the pool

2008-06-28T13:34:00.000-07:00

not one person will go with me. i've been at my house all day just watching entourage and hoolahooping.

after two years

2008-06-26T10:09:00.000-07:00

i can finally say that i had a HAPPY birthday. not that i did not have a good birthday before. now i can say with confidence that i have achieved contentment for now. no more flesh tubes. no more worrying about them. the friends that i cared the most about are still in my life.

i am officially 23 and flourishing.

Hell yeah it's summer!!!!!!!!!!

2008-05-21T11:01:00.000-07:00

things about summer

book reading
you're so vain by carly simon playing in the grocery store
starving
all athletic shorts all the time
hooooolahooooping while burning citronella incense
an open garage with christmas lights
oscilating fans
fruit
popsicles
pressing "repeat"
drinking water

seriously though, summer must include these things. i forgot to mention that your summer should include me because i am "soooo good at it". the only thing i lack in my summer collection of equipment is a boombox. just you wait and see. i will have a boombox.

sooooo i know how to cook

2008-03-29T08:36:00.000-07:00

but it occurred to me that there are many dishes i have never tried to make.

so booyah. i've started.

blah blah blah blah blah blah.

easter is my favorite holiday

2008-03-23T12:33:00.000-07:00

it's true.
second chances
redemption stories
i love it all

convertible

2008-03-13T13:19:00.000-07:00

cabrio,
you have been a wonderful friend and form of transport for me, but i am worried about you. i think these may be your final days, and it saddens me that we will spend them apart. however, you have become unreliable, a danger to yourself and others, and a real general pain in the butt. if you won't help yourself, how am i supposed to help you? maybe letting go is what i need to do for you and i to both have a better life. if you come out of this i hope we can both learn to take care of each other better.
your friend,
sarah

ways my bank account is winning this week

2008-03-10T10:22:00.000-07:00

1. the trace closed. sad.
2. i ate out for only two meals.
3. i have more than enough money to pay all my bills.
4. babysitting is great money.

resisting temptation

2008-03-06T14:48:00.000-08:00

i decided to turn down buying two pairs of shoes for 20% off. i bought no shoes. who is winning? my bank account.

2008-03-03T09:08:00.000-08:00

i am completely stressed out right now. it's pretty much official that we don't have enough people to even renew our lease through the summer. i really don't want to sign another 12 month lease. i really don't know what to do. gggggggggggaaaaaaaah.

allergies

2008-02-25T08:02:00.000-08:00

i can't hear very well out of my left ear, i have the sniffles, and my throat is scratchy. damn you allergies, and damn you john orman for deciding halfway through the oscars that it was okay for everyone to smoke in the living room. bbbbbbbbblllllllllling.

SNOWWWWW

2008-02-13T07:02:00.000-08:00

i can't handle how freaking ridiculous nashville weather is sometimes. 3am on feb. 12th it was warm. warm. now it's a christmas card. freaks.

two nights in a row

2008-02-10T09:56:00.000-08:00

broooooo'd it up at greenhouse on friday: i kissed a cute 19 yr old. could have sworn he was 21. just pecks.
at dan mcguinness last night: saw a girl give simulated oral sex while dancing with a dude. not sure if she was doing it on purpose but gross. my roommates boyfriend and his friends were so drunk that one of them had a one hundred and twenty dollar bar tab. when i told him i didn't think i should order another drink on his tab he told me that it didn't matter anymore after he had already spent so much. stacy's boyfriend told me that we watch too much mtv at the house to which i replied, " we only watch two shoes on there now. actually we really just mainly watch movies and rock of love."

today i read a book

2008-02-06T16:42:00.000-08:00

last night was tornado time. all the girls in my house were freaked out, but then we just had to see what it looked like outside. there were our neighbors sitting on their porch. tennessee. no damage to our property, but i could not go to sleep. the sirens went off until 2:45.

today, it is true, i read a book. i read "him her him again the end of him". it was a perfect read for me. i recommend it. very funny. it's about a woman who falls for a man who is the biggest jerk, but still falls for him, and even when he is married can't let him go. interesting. she can't quite tell you in the book why he is attractive cause he obviously isn't. i read it from beginning to the end, one sitting.

last night

2008-01-20T13:13:00.001-08:00

good, but i miss you all.

it's still good to be the youngest

2007-12-25T09:30:00.001-08:00

so sometimes i get down on myself cause i am the youngest in my family. gone are the golden days where i was cherished. however weird christmas is the advantages still shine through. i may not be married. i may not have children. i may still be semi-jobless.

but,

i still have my stocking. sorry to my older siblings with significant lives.

my favorite christmas picture ever

2007-12-24T15:45:00.001-08:00

i wish i were a quarter korean baby at christmas time.

blingalinglingaling

2007-12-22T07:11:00.000-08:00

time for christmas at my dad's parent's. better look skinny for ana grandma.

also, day of truth blonding day.

things at 2:45 am

2007-12-22T00:48:00.000-08:00

finally taking a break from oregon trail
about to go to sleep
gotta buy christmas completely tomorrow
whygodwhy
all alone
bored
boring
bling
fala

sad story:
after trying for two days to find someone who would go to opry mills with me, my mom called me and asked if i wanted to go. i had to do hair. bllllllllllaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah about not getting to opry mills. not blah about hair. things never line up.

what i'm doing right now

2007-12-20T10:24:00.000-08:00

i'm watching bodyshots ondemand.

2007-12-06T15:51:00.000-08:00

Gone From My Sight

by Henry Van Dyke

I am standing upon the seashore. A ship, at my side,
spreads her white sails to the moving breeze and starts
for the blue ocean. She is an object of beauty and strength.
I stand and watch her until, at length, she hangs like a speck
of white cloud just where the sea and sky come to mingle with each other.

Then, someone at my side says, "There, she is gone"

Gone where?

Gone from my sight. That is all. She is just as large in mast,
hull and spar as she was when she left my side.
And, she is just as able to bear her load of living freight to her destined port.

Her diminished size is in me -- not in her.
And, just at the moment when someone says, "There, she is gone,"
there are other eyes watching her coming, and other voices
ready to take up the glad shout, "Here she comes!"

And that is dying...

today at church

2007-12-02T10:29:00.000-08:00

we talked about time. soooooooooooo...............................

still doin it

2007-11-28T09:08:00.000-08:00

still listening to "touch it while pissed up". can't help it.

i watched the hills this morning. why is audrina so amazing? she speaks for mistreated girls everywhere. good for her for being strong enough to say straight his face that the best thing for her is if he wasn't in her life. she's no dumb baby. she's my inspiration i could never bring myself to live up to.

still doin it in so many ways. not letting him visibly get to me. i still kind of have control but not really. all i can do is pray for something else.

i'm still

2007-11-24T11:29:00.000-08:00

listening to "touch it while pissed up", and you better be doing the same.
llllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll
screw bad boys.
bad girls will always prevail.
truest statement of alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll time.
aallllllllllllllllllllllllllllll timemmmmmmmeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad
girl

i'm allowed to be however i want to be. i have freedom of choice. sooooo don't call me on christmas and leave me a message saying that i am the nicest sweetest girl you have ever met. i'm not spineless. i refuse to let you have the upper hand. you are not man enough. you're the worst. you're the kind who knows the most fulfilling way to live and denies living it. maybe we're two peas in a pod.

2007-11-23T13:19:00.000-08:00

download 100dBs.com's mash-ups of aphex twin, duh.
don't touch insulation in your attic.
wash your hair once a week.
fall out of love with a boy. if you can.
dance like a fag.
play lots of pool.
don't lose.
bake and eat a chess pie.
most importantly: listen to "Touch It While Pissed Up" from 100dBs.com's aphex twin mash-ups on repeat. don't cease to listen. keep listening. i promise. if you stop...god forbide...don't stop.

tender

2007-11-10T08:58:00.000-08:00

i'm feeling tender and sad and womp womp.

too many blogszzz

2007-11-05T09:05:00.000-08:00

there are tooo many i have toooo many.....................